A New Life....

So those who are close to me know that I have struggled with weight issues a VERY long time.  Heavy!  Not so heavy!  Heavy!  Not so heavy!  I had a hysterectomy and turned 30 the same year and that's all she wrote! 

So it's been a decade of struggle.  10 years of not liking what I see in the mirror.  The thing is I have no vision per se of what anyone "should" look like.  I'm not one to think super skinny is always best.  It looks great on some people but not on others.  So I'm not wanting to look like a rock star, or a runway model, or even a catalogue clothing model.  I just want to FEEL good.  I want to feel healthy.  I want to have energy.  I want to have a much much better self image. 

So I went to the doctor. 

Bleck. 

I need to lose A LOT of weight.  Maybe once I accomplish it I will actually share the poundage but pure embarrassment keeps me from doing so just yet. 

Balanced Diet and Exercise is the way to go.  Duh!  I know I need to make better choices.  I know I need to partake less of the adult beverage I so enjoy during the Friday happy hour.  Basically, I've realized that I chose for the past 10 years to be unhealthy.  Sure there were times when I lost almost all that I needed to lose.  But it never stuck.  Never did I say:  "Okay, I worked this hard to drop it so I'm going to continue living this lifestyle."  Of course there were fad diets of protein, no carbs, grapefruit only and cabbage soup.  Those never last because once you stop you stop and the weight comes back. 

It's an actual lifestyle change.  I chose every bite I put into my mouth.  I chose to live in an unhealthy way. 

So now I choose differently. 

My doctor will hold me accountable.  My husband will support me.  My daughter gives me high-fives.  This is it. 

WHY you ask?  Because FREAKING 40 is staring me in the face.  May 14, 2012 I will turn 40.  I don't want to enter that decade of my life without finding a balance.  I want to feel good about myself.  I want to know I can achieve all things. 

Really - I don't want to be 40 at all.  But if I have to - then I might as well do it right. 

So here's to the next 8 months - being healthier - and gaining a new perspective on what the next ten years can be!